Because Thanksgiving falls on the fourth Thursday of November, we will move our next meeting up by a week.
We will meet on Thursday, November 20 from 6:30pm - 8:00pm in the Parish Center Fireplace Room. Please join us for an evening of prayer, reflection, and support! Thank you to all who made our last meeting a warm and grace-filled experience.
Monday, October 27, 2014
The Hound of Heaven
Recommended by a group member:
I pleaded, outlaw-wise,
By many a hearted casement, curtained red,
Trellised with intertwining charities;
(For, though I knew His love Who followed,
Yet was I sore adread
Lest, having Him, I must have naught beside.)
But, if one little casement parted wide,
The gust of His approach would clash it to:
Fear wist not to evade, as Love wist to pursue.
Across the margent of the world I fled,
And troubled the gold gateway of the stars,
Smiting for shelter on their clanged bars;
Fretted to dulcet jars
And silvern chatter the pale ports o' the moon.
I said to Dawn: Be sudden—to Eve: Be soon;
With thy young skiey blossom heap me over
From this tremendous Lover—
Float thy vague veil about me, lest He see!
I tempted all His servitors, but to find
My own betrayal in their constancy,
In faith to Him their fickleness to me,
Their traitorous trueness, and their loyal deceit.
To all swift things for swiftness did I sue;
Clung to the whistling mane of every wind.
But whether they swept, smoothly fleet,
The long savannahs of the blue;
Or, whether, Thunder-driven,
They clanged his chariot 'thwart a heaven,
Plashy with flying lightnings round the spurn o' their feet:—
Fear wist not to evade as Love wist to pursue.
Still with unhurrying chase,
And unperturbed pace,
Deliberate speed, majestic instancy,
Came on the following Feet,
And a Voice above their beat—
'Naught shelters thee, who wilt not shelter Me.'
I sought no more after that which I strayed
In face of man or maid;
But still within the little children's eyes
Seems something, something that replies,
They at least are for me, surely for me!
I turned me to them very wistfully;
But just as their young eyes grew sudden fair
With dawning answers there,
Their angel plucked them from me by the hair.
Come then, ye other children, Nature's—share
With me’ (said I) 'your delicate fellowship;
Let me greet you lip to lip,
Let me twine with you caresses,
Wantoning
With our Lady-Mother's vagrant tresses,
Banqueting
With her in her wind-walled palace,
Underneath her azured dais,
Quaffing, as your taintless way is,
From a chalice
Lucent-weeping out of the dayspring.’
So it was done:
I in their delicate fellowship was one—
Drew the bolt of Nature's secrecies.
I knew all the swift importings
On the wilful face of skies;
I knew how the clouds arise
Spumèd of the wild sea-snortings;
All that's born or dies
Rose and drooped with; made them shapers
Of mine own moods, or wailful divine;
With them joyed and was bereaven.
I was heavy with the even,
When she lit her glimmering tapers
Round the day's dead sanctities.
I laughed in the morning's eyes.
I triumphed and I saddened with all weather,
Heaven and I wept together,
And its sweet tears were salt with mortal mine:
Against the red throb of its sunset-heart
I laid my own to beat,
And share commingling heat;
But not by that, by that, was eased my human smart.
In vain my tears were wet on Heaven's grey cheek.
For ah! we know not what each other says,
These things and I; in sound I speak—
Their sound is but their stir, they speak by silences.
Nature, poor stepdame, cannot slake my drouth;
Let her, if she would owe me,
Drop yon blue bosom-veil of sky, and show me
The breasts o’ her tenderness:
Never did any milk of hers once bless
My thirsting mouth.
Nigh and nigh draws the chase,
With unperturbed pace,
Deliberate speed, majestic instancy;
And past those noisèd Feet
A voice comes yet more fleet—
'Lo! naught contents thee, who content'st not Me.'
Naked I wait Thy love's uplifted stroke!
My harness piece by piece Thou has hewn from me,
And smitten me to my knee;
I am defenceless utterly.
I slept, methinks, and woke,
And, slowly gazing, find me stripped in sleep.
In the rash lustihead of my young powers,
I shook the pillaring hours
And pulled my life upon me; grimed with smears,
I stand amidst the dust o' the mounded years—My mangled youth lies dead beneath the heap.
My days have crackled and gone up in smoke,
Have puffed and burst as sun-starts on a stream.
Yea, faileth now even dream
The dreamer, and the lute the lutanist;
Even the linked fantasies, in whose blossomy twist
I swung the earth a trinket at my wrist,
Are yielding; cords of all too weak account
For earth with heavy griefs so overplussed.
Ah! is Thy love indeed
A weed, albeit an amarinthine weed,
Suffering no flowers except its own to mount?
Ah! must—
Designer infinite!—Ah! must Thou char the wood ere Thou canst limn with it?
My freshness spent its wavering shower i' the dust;
And now my heart is as a broken fount,
Wherein tear-drippings stagnate, spilt down ever
From the dank thoughts that shiver
Upon the sighful branches of my mind.
Such is; what is to be?
The pulp so bitter, how shall taste the rind?
I dimly guess what Time in mists confounds;
Yet ever and anon a trumpet sounds
From the hid battlements of Eternity;
Those shaken mists a space unsettle, then
Round the half-glimpsed turrets slowly wash again.
But not ere him who summoneth
I first have seen, enwound
With glooming robes purpureal, cypress-crowned;
His name I know and what his trumpet saith.
Whether man's heart or life it be which yields
Thee harvest, must Thy harvest-fields
Be dunged with rotten death?
Now of that long pursuit
Comes on at hand the bruit;
That Voice is round me like a bursting sea:
'And is thy earth so marred,
Shattered in shard on shard?
Lo, all things fly thee, for thou fliest Me!
'Strange, piteous, futile thing!
Wherefore should any set thee love apart?
Seeing none but I makes much of naught' (He said),
'And human love needs human meriting:
How hast thou merited—Of all man's clotted clay the dingiest clot?
Alack, thou knowest not
How little worthy of any love thou art!
Whom wilt thou find to love ignoble thee,
Save Me, save only Me?
All which I took from thee I did but take,
Not for thy harms,
But just that thou might'st seek it in My arms.
All which thy child's mistake
Fancies as lost, I have stored for thee at home:
Rise, clasp My hand, and come!'
Halts by me that footfall:
Is my gloom, after all,
Shade of His hand, outstretched caressingly?
'Ah, fondest, blindest, weakest,
I am He Whom thou seekest!
Thou dravest love from thee, who dravest Me.'
The Hound of Heaven
by Francis Thompson
I fled Him, down the nights and down the days;
I fled Him, down the arches of the years;
I fled Him, down the labyrinthine ways
Of my own mind; and in the midst of tears
I hid from Him, and under running laughter.
Up vistaed hopes I sped;
And shot, precipitated,
Adown Titanic glooms of chasmed fears,
From those strong Feet that followed, followed after.
But with unhurrying chase,
And unperturbèd pace,
Deliberate speed, majestic instancy,
They beat—and a Voice beat
More instant than the Feet—
'All things betray thee, who betrayest Me'.
I pleaded, outlaw-wise,
By many a hearted casement, curtained red,
Trellised with intertwining charities;
(For, though I knew His love Who followed,
Yet was I sore adread
Lest, having Him, I must have naught beside.)
But, if one little casement parted wide,
The gust of His approach would clash it to:
Fear wist not to evade, as Love wist to pursue.
Across the margent of the world I fled,
And troubled the gold gateway of the stars,
Smiting for shelter on their clanged bars;
Fretted to dulcet jars
And silvern chatter the pale ports o' the moon.
I said to Dawn: Be sudden—to Eve: Be soon;
With thy young skiey blossom heap me over
From this tremendous Lover—
Float thy vague veil about me, lest He see!
I tempted all His servitors, but to find
My own betrayal in their constancy,
In faith to Him their fickleness to me,
Their traitorous trueness, and their loyal deceit.
To all swift things for swiftness did I sue;
Clung to the whistling mane of every wind.
But whether they swept, smoothly fleet,
The long savannahs of the blue;
Or, whether, Thunder-driven,
They clanged his chariot 'thwart a heaven,
Plashy with flying lightnings round the spurn o' their feet:—
Fear wist not to evade as Love wist to pursue.
Still with unhurrying chase,
And unperturbed pace,
Deliberate speed, majestic instancy,
Came on the following Feet,
And a Voice above their beat—
'Naught shelters thee, who wilt not shelter Me.'
I sought no more after that which I strayed
In face of man or maid;
But still within the little children's eyes
Seems something, something that replies,
They at least are for me, surely for me!
I turned me to them very wistfully;
But just as their young eyes grew sudden fair
With dawning answers there,
Their angel plucked them from me by the hair.
Come then, ye other children, Nature's—share
With me’ (said I) 'your delicate fellowship;
Let me greet you lip to lip,
Let me twine with you caresses,
Wantoning
With our Lady-Mother's vagrant tresses,
Banqueting
With her in her wind-walled palace,
Underneath her azured dais,
Quaffing, as your taintless way is,
From a chalice
Lucent-weeping out of the dayspring.’
So it was done:
I in their delicate fellowship was one—
Drew the bolt of Nature's secrecies.
I knew all the swift importings
On the wilful face of skies;
I knew how the clouds arise
Spumèd of the wild sea-snortings;
All that's born or dies
Rose and drooped with; made them shapers
Of mine own moods, or wailful divine;
With them joyed and was bereaven.
I was heavy with the even,
When she lit her glimmering tapers
Round the day's dead sanctities.
I laughed in the morning's eyes.
I triumphed and I saddened with all weather,
Heaven and I wept together,
And its sweet tears were salt with mortal mine:
Against the red throb of its sunset-heart
I laid my own to beat,
And share commingling heat;
But not by that, by that, was eased my human smart.
In vain my tears were wet on Heaven's grey cheek.
For ah! we know not what each other says,
These things and I; in sound I speak—
Their sound is but their stir, they speak by silences.
Nature, poor stepdame, cannot slake my drouth;
Let her, if she would owe me,
Drop yon blue bosom-veil of sky, and show me
The breasts o’ her tenderness:
Never did any milk of hers once bless
My thirsting mouth.
Nigh and nigh draws the chase,
With unperturbed pace,
Deliberate speed, majestic instancy;
And past those noisèd Feet
A voice comes yet more fleet—
'Lo! naught contents thee, who content'st not Me.'
Naked I wait Thy love's uplifted stroke!
My harness piece by piece Thou has hewn from me,
And smitten me to my knee;
I am defenceless utterly.
I slept, methinks, and woke,
And, slowly gazing, find me stripped in sleep.
In the rash lustihead of my young powers,
I shook the pillaring hours
And pulled my life upon me; grimed with smears,
I stand amidst the dust o' the mounded years—My mangled youth lies dead beneath the heap.
My days have crackled and gone up in smoke,
Have puffed and burst as sun-starts on a stream.
Yea, faileth now even dream
The dreamer, and the lute the lutanist;
Even the linked fantasies, in whose blossomy twist
I swung the earth a trinket at my wrist,
Are yielding; cords of all too weak account
For earth with heavy griefs so overplussed.
Ah! is Thy love indeed
A weed, albeit an amarinthine weed,
Suffering no flowers except its own to mount?
Ah! must—
Designer infinite!—Ah! must Thou char the wood ere Thou canst limn with it?
My freshness spent its wavering shower i' the dust;
And now my heart is as a broken fount,
Wherein tear-drippings stagnate, spilt down ever
From the dank thoughts that shiver
Upon the sighful branches of my mind.
Such is; what is to be?
The pulp so bitter, how shall taste the rind?
I dimly guess what Time in mists confounds;
Yet ever and anon a trumpet sounds
From the hid battlements of Eternity;
Those shaken mists a space unsettle, then
Round the half-glimpsed turrets slowly wash again.
But not ere him who summoneth
I first have seen, enwound
With glooming robes purpureal, cypress-crowned;
His name I know and what his trumpet saith.
Whether man's heart or life it be which yields
Thee harvest, must Thy harvest-fields
Be dunged with rotten death?
Now of that long pursuit
Comes on at hand the bruit;
That Voice is round me like a bursting sea:
'And is thy earth so marred,
Shattered in shard on shard?
Lo, all things fly thee, for thou fliest Me!
'Strange, piteous, futile thing!
Wherefore should any set thee love apart?
Seeing none but I makes much of naught' (He said),
'And human love needs human meriting:
How hast thou merited—Of all man's clotted clay the dingiest clot?
Alack, thou knowest not
How little worthy of any love thou art!
Whom wilt thou find to love ignoble thee,
Save Me, save only Me?
All which I took from thee I did but take,
Not for thy harms,
But just that thou might'st seek it in My arms.
All which thy child's mistake
Fancies as lost, I have stored for thee at home:
Rise, clasp My hand, and come!'
Halts by me that footfall:
Is my gloom, after all,
Shade of His hand, outstretched caressingly?
'Ah, fondest, blindest, weakest,
I am He Whom thou seekest!
Thou dravest love from thee, who dravest Me.'
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Resources: Further Reading
Recommended by members of our group:
1. Down Came the Rain: My Journey Through Postpartum Depression, by Brooke Shields.
An honest and open account of the actress' unexpected slide into depression after the long-awaited birth of her daughter. In a culture where so many women are shamed into silence when experiencing post-partum depression, Shields' courageous account allows us to see that we are not alone, and that help is out there.
2. Shock: The Healing Power of Electroconvulsive Therapy, by Kitty Dukakis and Larry Tye.
Though controversial and often characterized as primitive, cruel, and barbaric, electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) is one of the most effective treatments for severe depression. Kitty Dukakis recounts her experience with ECT and presents medical evidence to combat the stigma against it.
3. The Five People You Meet In Heaven, by Mitch Albom.
This novel recounts the story of Eddie, who dies on his 83rd birthday trying to save a young girl's life, and who meets five people in heaven who reveal to him the meaning of his life on earth.
4. Tuesdays with Morrie, by Mitch Albom.
A memoir recounting the author's reconnection with the inspiring college professor who becomes a spiritual mentor.
1. Down Came the Rain: My Journey Through Postpartum Depression, by Brooke Shields.
An honest and open account of the actress' unexpected slide into depression after the long-awaited birth of her daughter. In a culture where so many women are shamed into silence when experiencing post-partum depression, Shields' courageous account allows us to see that we are not alone, and that help is out there.
2. Shock: The Healing Power of Electroconvulsive Therapy, by Kitty Dukakis and Larry Tye.
Though controversial and often characterized as primitive, cruel, and barbaric, electroconvulsive therapy (ECT) is one of the most effective treatments for severe depression. Kitty Dukakis recounts her experience with ECT and presents medical evidence to combat the stigma against it.
3. The Five People You Meet In Heaven, by Mitch Albom.
This novel recounts the story of Eddie, who dies on his 83rd birthday trying to save a young girl's life, and who meets five people in heaven who reveal to him the meaning of his life on earth.
4. Tuesdays with Morrie, by Mitch Albom.
A memoir recounting the author's reconnection with the inspiring college professor who becomes a spiritual mentor.
Monday, October 13, 2014
Article: "Depression and Suicide - A Catholic Perspective" (National Catholic Register)
Aaron Kheriaty, "Depression and Suicide - A Catholic Perspective," National Catholic Register.
Catholic psychiatrist Aaron Kheriaty, author of The Catholic Guide to Depression, cites the example of Robin Williams to remind us that depression can strike "anyone, of any temperament and personality." The tragedy of depression, he writes, is that it distorts our thinking, making us unable to see ourselves as others see us and as God sees us. He also encourages Catholics to take a holistic approach to depression - one that integrates medicine, theology, and psychology - in order to assist those who suffer.
Catholic psychiatrist Aaron Kheriaty, author of The Catholic Guide to Depression, cites the example of Robin Williams to remind us that depression can strike "anyone, of any temperament and personality." The tragedy of depression, he writes, is that it distorts our thinking, making us unable to see ourselves as others see us and as God sees us. He also encourages Catholics to take a holistic approach to depression - one that integrates medicine, theology, and psychology - in order to assist those who suffer.
Article: "Suffering and Suffering-With" (Ethika Politika)
Elizabeth Stoker Bruenig, "Suffering and Suffering-With," Ethika Politika.
In this touching essay, the author relates her experience growing up with her brother who suffered from depression. She speaks of the exhaustion and feelings of helplessness that the families of those who are depressed can feel when they see their loved ones suffer. But, drawing on the example of Christ and the disciples in Gethsemane, she has come to believe that, even if compassion can't always save the depressed, the act of "suffering-with" those who are depressed and suicidal still has value - both for the depressed person and for the person striving to be with them in their pain. She writes: "If we see that someone is suffering and we know that he may very well feel compelled by his agony to consider suicide, it is in fact our duty to approach him with love and support rather than shame and suspicion." As Christians who believe in a God who came precisely to suffer with and suffer for us, we too are called, always and everywhere, to respond with compassion to the hopelessness of the depressed.
In this touching essay, the author relates her experience growing up with her brother who suffered from depression. She speaks of the exhaustion and feelings of helplessness that the families of those who are depressed can feel when they see their loved ones suffer. But, drawing on the example of Christ and the disciples in Gethsemane, she has come to believe that, even if compassion can't always save the depressed, the act of "suffering-with" those who are depressed and suicidal still has value - both for the depressed person and for the person striving to be with them in their pain. She writes: "If we see that someone is suffering and we know that he may very well feel compelled by his agony to consider suicide, it is in fact our duty to approach him with love and support rather than shame and suspicion." As Christians who believe in a God who came precisely to suffer with and suffer for us, we too are called, always and everywhere, to respond with compassion to the hopelessness of the depressed.
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Next meeting: October 23!
Please join us on Thursday, October 23, 2014, for the next meeting of the St. Agnes Depression Support group. We will meet in the Parish Center Fireplace Room from 6:30pm-8:00pm. Thank you to all who made our first meeting a grace-filled, prayerful, and healing experience.
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